So my grandmother had to go to the emergency room this afternoon, I found out at work. She has been in and out a couple times after about a week stay a month ago because her heart decides to race at random moments. It gets as high as 225 beats per minute, resting. The cardiologist had been hoping to control it with medicine, but after todays episode, they may have to perform a surgical procedure to cauterize the part of her heart that is malfunctioning. So yeah, what started as a great day got very stressful. My whole family is very worried about her and I’m just trying to stay positive.

I see my Nana, and her health problems as more motivation. She has been obese her entire adult life. She has had to have both hips, and both knees replaced, and she is only 74 years old. I work with a woman who is 74, she is still working! My Nana wants her children and us grandchildren to learn from her mistakes. She told me so, she told me how being fat and hating yourself and worrying about your weight is no way to live, only a way to leave.

I canceled dinner with my friends since I didn’t know if I would be at the hospital or not after work, but in doing so I overindulged at work when there were beef taquitos (I ate 6, 420 cal.) and chips (a bowlful). Adding it all up I went 244 over my daily budget, consumed 1759 calories, burned 135 with exercise and so my net for the day is 1594. Not bad considering I can eat that in a meal, or drink it in an evening. But I also don’t want to settle with “not bad”, I want and deserve better. I’m refusing to wallow in my lapse in judgement. I am still going to consider this day a success and move on to a new day tomorrow. I work 8-4:30 tomorrow, I’m waking up at 6am, doing a 30 minute exercise routine (hulu, wii or yoga dvd). After work since we will have a few more hours of sunshine my boyfriend and I can go for a big bike ride. My goal is to burn at least 250 calories in exercise for the day. I will post pics of my meals and stay positive.

-This must work!

yes, exclamation point! I feel I need one :)

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